I have extreme insomnia and have great difficulty sleeping, one night after I had taken an Ambien to sleep, but still not feeling tired, I was on Facebook. I finally felt tired enough and I went to sleep. Imagine my surprise when I woke up the next day and I found a receipt for the purchase of the class. At first, I thought well that was a waste of money! I don't have the time or the talent to do this class. i have had a lot of things going on in my life and I just kept thinking about the classes. I finally decided that I should do as my subconscious decided and dive into the class.
The first lesson was to consider yourself as a "Soul House" think about the people you have allowed to come into your house. Have you given them the right to throw garbage on your floors, break your items and move things around. Have you allowed people to change your home into something that you don't even recognize anymore? Has your Soul House become so strange to you that you don't even live there anymore? It wasn't hard to imagine my Soul House in total disrepair, not a haven for my soul, nothing I am proud of, very broken and outdated. It was so easy because that is what my physical home looked like. After Dave died, I just didn't care anymore. I allowed people to make decisions for me or my family, to judge the mess that I was in but not offer to help. Therion has been helping me to rebuild my physical home and in truth my Soul house as well.
As I was really able to imagine my soul house I thought about a home in disrepair, windows broken, furniture torn up, dirty with cobwebs. People disrespecting my home, disrespecting me, judging me and my home. I was never good enough, my home was a mess.
The next step is to start to clean out all the garbage, repair the damage and kick everybody out of my house while I rebuild my soul from the inside out. I imagined my home with an open lock, I hold the key and I get to decide who I allow into my soul house. Only those who are very close to me, who honor me and my home are allowed to come that close to my soul. As I get stronger and my house is in better repair, I will start to determine where each relationship in my life will stand and how far I will let them into my soul house. Some people will be allowed to visit me on my porch, others at my gate, some I will meet in the neighborhood park, others at the local Starbucks. Some people will not be allowed near my home. I will do all of this through love and I can love them from a safe distance, a distance where they can't damage my home or disrespect my soul.
I am closed for restoration! I will let you know the next steps of my journey. I am also learning some art techniques which for this non-crafty girl is just crazy. I will share my efforts with you as well, be kind dear friend, be kind!